This is mostly to get out my frustration that has been building up and its for any one who cares to read it I guess.
I just found out today that two of my friends can't go to the con. My one friend(lets call him Bob) called me this morning and asked when we would return home on Sunday. Well first of all I printed out a sheet that had all the info on it like three weeks ago. I had told him that we would be gone for Easter. His parents were having a party and he felt guilty if he was not there. He had know for months that we would not be back till late Sunday, was he in La La land or something! I would not be mad at him because he said he was sorry, but I spent so much time on his costume for him that I still have not finished my own costume( and might not finish it for the con thanks to him) and on top of that I have fallen behind on school work for it. So I have to research for a ten page paper make an outline that is 3-4 pages long, do another history project, finsh two art projects, read a few chapters in four books and there has to be something else because the list is not long enough oh yeah my ten page Latin translation and such packet. I feel so stresses and on top of this I still have some things to make up because I was sick two weeks ago. I think I am going crazy. I feel lost and sometimes I can't get my self to do the work because I'm so depressed eventhough I know by not doing it, I hurt myself more. I have been looking forward to this con for months and I don't want to miss it because I have too much to do.
Then the next bad thing comes when Bob tells me at the end of the conversation that my other friend told him he could not go. He does not even call me to tell me he can't go! I would never have known until the morning of the con and we would have ran late. I don't mean to sound like a jerk but I hate it how I give up everything for my friends but they hardly ever return the kindness. I usually don't talk to people about my problems and I'm sorry for taking up your time. I hope I forget my problems when I get to the con.